Monday Weigh-In (week 6)

Well it's Monday and that means weigh-ins. I didn't lose anything this week! So my scale says anyway, the scale at work says 219 lbs. but I have to stick to mine. I was sad about it this morning but Jason looked at me and said "it's no big deal, at least you didn't gain." He is right! I could be mopey all day but it's a new week and I'm pushing for something next week.

I did have a victory off the scale; I was able to fit comfortably into my size 18 Jeans, I so love this! Not only that, but I went 3 miles on the treadmill! 

I usually watch a show when I'm walking, but last night I couldn't so I watched music videos. So my going 3 miles is all thanks to Bear's Den, Mumford & Sons, and Awolnation. 

This is Bear's Den; I in no way own the rights to this video, just sharing the love!

Continuing-- I made chicken quesadillas Sunday for lunch and wow, they were awesome. However, I did flub Saturday, we were driving down the road and I got a big whiff of someone cooking steak - I was done! That’s all it took was the smell and I was drooling. So we had steak and baked potato, I am proud of myself because I use to eat a steak the size of my plate and this time it was almost the same size as the potato. I also used two tablespoons of sour cream; I've been trying to stick to just 1 but oh well... Life goes on.

On Monday Jasmine, and Joslynn went back to school, then on Thursday Jaelynn started Kindergarten. I cried so badly. I saw this little girl crying and it was horrible! Once I seen her I was done. I at least was able to hide it from Jaelynn but I cannot imagine when they go to move out. 

With them starting school last week it made it crazy. Now I've got the schedule down so this week I should be able to kick some weight loss butt. I really have to watch Friday and Saturday because we are going to the concert. So I will let you know how that goes. I'm not sure how long I'm going to walk tonight; I'll just play it like I did last night. So until tomorrow, Stay good everyone!

Very Quick

I just wanted to stop in for a minute and let you all know I'm still here and keeping up with the loss. It's been a crazy week so today the Me, Jason and the kids are just going to sit and watch movies all day! So I will write a bigger post tomorrow about my week last week. I hope everyone is keeping up the good work!

Monday Weigh-In (week 5)/ Mumford & Sons

I am so excited! My Mumford & Sons tickets came in, I will take a photo tomorrow I left them with the husband today and he hid them and I don't know where and he is too busy to call and find out. That is another reason I started to lose weight, I wanted to lose a lot before the concert but I had 5 months to start and instead of starting I waited. Better late than never right. I CANNOT WAIT!!!!! Oh I almost forgot, me being lost looking through the passport book, Jasmine grabbed one of the bracelets, put it on and tightened it all the way! I flipped out, you can’t loosen it and my wrist isn't as little as a 9 year old. Thank goodness they said they will have one waiting for us when we get there.

Well it is Monday, which means it is weigh in day. I didn't do to great but I did pretty well. I lost 1 lb.

Sorry about my work socks, I almost forgot to weigh in and had to run back in and do it real fast.

It was hard last week staying on track, (eating wise) I wanted to fall into my old ways and not eat. So this week I am making a schedule to make myself stay on track. It's really hard for me to really know when I am going to have time to eat but I am going to have to make time. So I am going to make a goal to set eating times and staying with it, also I am going to start trying to keep a meal planner (this will take a minute).

I worked out tonight, I only did 15 minutes. I walked for 5 minutes, Ran for 5 minutes, and walked at an incline of grade 6 for 5 minutes. I feel great. Tomorrow we have Jasmines Diagnostics test so I can't wait to get the ball rolling on that so we can maybe start helping her out more and understanding how she learns and how to talk to her. I'm off to bed, have a good day tomorrow everyone!

Until next time

Pretty Little Liars

I did it again, I ran! This time at a speed of 5.0, I was going to do a long walk, but that changed. I started off at 2.5, and within 5 minutes I found myself running. I would run for a minute and walked to two, I had sweat pouring off me. I was excited to run because I could watch an episode of Pretty Little Liars; I would say I'm addicted. I also like it because it’s one of those shows that keep my focus while running.

Today, when I got home from work,  Jason had the front yard looking great. We spent most of the day outside. The girls and I planted the Mums I had bought the other day; I can't wait to get more. Fall is my favorite time of year and I love Mums! Tomorrow I am getting my house together, I have neglected it way to long. I have decided I am going to pack up anything I do not use every day and take it to storage until we can move to a bigger house.

What do you like to do while exercising on the treadmill? Do you like to listen to music, watch a movie, read, etc.?

Have a great night!

Danger Zone

Sorry I have been absent for a few days, I had to get a website done and ready by yesterday, so I didn't have a lot of time for anything else. I stayed on my eating plan and did very well. I went to the doctor just to get checked up and tell him about my diet plan and make sure everything sounded good. He said everything seems very well and the diet plan I am on seems like a good one.

I had a rough past two days, it has been an emotional roller coaster. I really don't want to get into specifics due to I don't know who might read this, but it was horrible. Something Jason and I have been trying to avoid for awhile and have worked so hard for it not to happen, then it did. We will pull through, no big deal. The biggest down fall, I have noticed I am trying to fall back into my old ways of not eating, I use to never eat breakfast or lunch and I have found myself trying to do that again, so I have been trying my hardest to make myself eat (even though I really do not want to).

Due to the unforeseen circumstances that took place, I got almost no sleep the night before last. I remember almost every detail of sleeping, it started off like this, Here I am fast asleep curled up on my side sleeping like a baby. Then out of nowhere, as if someone put a speaker up to my ear with it being turned all the way up... "Highway to the Danger Zone, Ride into the Danger Zone......." then I feel like I wake up, I turn the music down in my HEAD and drift off again. "I could lift you up, I could show you what you want to see and take you where you wanna be....." err at this point I'm getting angry, fall back asleep and "Highway to the Danger Zone, Ride into the Danger Zone..." This is just samples, oh yes my special jukebox in my head played the two songs all the way through every time. They repeated all night long. In the middle there, somewhere, Jasmine came in and woke me up telling me the house was haunted because the soap in the bathtub fell.


I went to work and during, I cried at least 5 times it was hard trying to hide it from everyone. So I told myself when I get home I am running. I had to go to the police department to present the website but ended up leaving because we had to be at open house for all three girls. I hope this is going to be a good school year for all of them.

Came home and made a Portobello beefy melt, you can find the recipe here

 

I ate, got the girls in bed, and started watching the movie "Upside Down" it is pretty good so far. Watched 15 minute of that and hopped on the Mill. I walked 10 min at 3.0 and then ran every other minute after at 4.5. I completed my mile in 19.46 (NICE) but I RAN!!!!!!!! This is totally awesome!!

I totally did it in my Oscar Mayer Weiner Pants :) and I have a huge head, sorry.

So keep up the good work friends.

Monthly Devil

I have figured out what is wrong with me, why I'm so hungry, tired, Bitchy moody, etc. Yap it's that time of the month again, I know, you all are thinking why aren't you use to this? Wouldn't you know that it was that time? NO! I haven’t had this time of the month in 5 years. I mean, I'm sure I had mood swings but nothing like this in a long time. I'm proud of myself because instead of eating everything in my path (of which I would KILL to be able to do) I haven’t. I have stuck with my eating plan.

My stomach is not in the mood to walk tonight at all, matter of fact I am going to be as soon as I'm done here. I don't feel really bad about the walking thing because I spent 1 hour moving heavy furniture and sweated my butt off.

My body has been craving Iron. All day all I could think about was a huge juicy hamburger (good thing I laid out some patties) I made an awesome healthier version of a hamburger, you can find it here. It turned out so good; I have so many ideas running through my head right now for other burger recipes... 

Sorry the post is not very long again, as I'm sitting here typing I'm hearing sirens going by my house and with Hubby on duty I'm flipping out just a little.Tomorrow is a 2 miler and nothing is going to stop me, I might even try for 2.5 but we shall see. Until tomorrow - Keep off the pounds my friends.

Monday Weigh-In (week 4)

It's Monday! First things first, I've changed my weigh-in day to Mondays. I feel it will help me stay on track during the weekend. I did great this weekend but I just want to make sure. So here are my results...

Down 3 lbs.! 

For some reason even though this is great news I have been having a stressful day. I was so hungry after lunch today, so hungry! Once again I forgot to lie something out for dinner err... I could beat myself. Luckily we had some frozen fish I was able to throw together. I am trying to eat everything in the cabinets before buying more, trying to save some money. Instead of going and buying stuff to go with something just using what I got. I can tell you now I cannot wait to go grocery shopping; this is a hard thing to do.

I really can't wait to go to the store and try to find some type of chips to go with my homemade salsa. Annette at work has been working her butt off in her garden all weekend and brought me a jar of her salsa and it is amazing!

I have got to find a recipe to use this in or some form of healthier chips, I am dying to have some... So if anyone knows of anything let me know... please!

That's it for now, happy Monday everyone!

New Shoes

Well I put the shoes to the test, at first it was awesome, and I was able to start off at 2.7 and then very shortly after bumped up to 3.0. The shoes really made me feel like I could walk easier and were very comfy. However, come 10 minutes in my shins were screaming! I had my right shoe tide to tight and every time I stepped down it felt like it was pulling my shin. I went back down to 2.5 hoping it would go away and it did release a little so then I went back to 3.0. Around 17 minutes I had to go back and stay at 2.5, I only did 1 mile. I felt awesome I could have went longer but with how bad my shins were hurting I didn’t want to get shin splints so I made myself quit. Tomorrow is my 2 miler, I hope I can make it without them hurting like they did tonight. I really do love the shoes though, just need to break them in.

I made an awesome dinner tonight you can find the recipe here. I call it Apple Chop Delight and its only 301 Calories. Well sorry for the short post, I'm going to snuggle with my love... Night everyone!

I do this for my Daughter's

I said I would tell you all the main reason I started this journey a while ago, well here it is.

My daughter Joslynn is starting to get a little on the plump side (I would never say this to her). My daughters have only had me to look up to and the other women in their lives... well we have all got some meat on us. They have only seen me and how I eat, they have only had the food I have given them, and they have only had the drinks I have laid in front of them.

On July 9th, I made chicken stir fry. It was storming that day and when Jason got home he told me to step outside and look at the sky, Jason, Jasmine, Jaelynn and I all went out front to look. I turned to ask a question and I notice Joslynn wasn't there, I walked back into the house and she was standing in front of the bowl of the extra rice and had a huge hand full and piling it in her mouth. I always let her eat everyone's leftovers if she wanted and never said anything, I wasn't worried about it.

That was the day that woke me up! Why would I let my daughter eat like this? How could I let this happen? I have made my daughter’s life worse and she may have an eating disorder at the age of 7 and its all due to me. So these last three weeks I have been changing our eating habits, I am so happy I have seen the light, I am so happy that maybe by me changing my life and showing I care about myself that it might help them want to be healthy also. I love my daughters and would never tell them they are "FAT" or anything. I would never tell them they need to not eat something because it will make then gain weight!

I do not believe she has a full blown eating disorder and I do believe I caught it in time, the biggest reason I am concerned for all of them is I started my women hood at 9,yes that is right 9! I believe Joslynn is beginning her process, and I do believe that is the cause of her being hungrier and gaining more weight. I just feel so bad I have let myself go and my girls have been looking up to me this whole time and have seen me doing nothing to better myself.

 I have notice changes in this past month, I've noticed they want to eat the healthier stuff and haven't been wanting junk food, they have been happier, and more energetic, instead of asking for juice or other unhealthy drinks they want water, they have adjusted very well to the new eating habits. I am so proud of them for how well they have adjusted because I know after years of them being able to eat whatever they want it has to be hard on them, but they have acted like it is no big deal. I do cook something on the side for them every now and then, mac-n-cheese etc. you know the kids favorites.

So in writing this (which is a very hard thing to do) I seen a blog post that has helped me very much and I love every single bit of it! "How to talk to your daughter about her weight" I love everything in this. I can't wait to see the changes in the whole family as we go on this journey together. I just hope they don't have to struggle through life the way I have, I hope them seeing me make a change will guide them in the right direction.

What made/ or makes you want to change your life to better it?

Kings Island

Yesterday we woke up ready for Kings Island; the kids were ready to leave as soon as they got us up. I wanted to make a good breakfast that way they would hold off on being hungry until noon, they was so mad we had to wait around (they aren't use to me eating breakfast) so instead of the old normal me giving them a bowl of cereal, pop tart, whatever to make it fast so we could leave. I made eggs on an English muffin.

              Eggs, Ranch dressing, Chives, and Whole Wheat English Muffin, topped with Swiss cheese.

 We had to go to the car dealership and get another set of keys for the Van. It was raining so once we got done with that we decided to go over to the Mall across the street and see if any of the stores had good deals going for shoes. Sears had a pretty good deal, buy one get one 50% off but I am a Wal-Mart gal, I can’t bring myself to buy shoes that are $20.00 or above (I know, if I want a good pair I have to pay for them) I just have so much guilt buying things for myself when we are so tight on money. After looking and not finding anything we went over to some other stores which ended up being more failures, searching store after store I gave up.

These are my old shoes; I am such a tightwad, look at these shoes. I got these on clearance 3 years ago for $30.00 and I believe I have gotten my money worth lol. That is ridiculous. (Yes, that is my finger sticking through those hole).

The new pair Dr. Scholl’s, they felt so comfy when I tried them on, I just hope they are while walking a long distance, I'll find out tonight.

It was starting to clear up so we decided to head on to Kings Island and have a fun day. It was almost noon, so we decided to stop at Frisch's and grab a bite before going (I did NOT want to go in that park while being hungry). I ordered the soup and salad bar; I had a half cup of veggie soup and a salad, very lite and refreshing. We get to the park and there is almost nobody there (maybe 20 rows halfway field up) so even though I knew I could have parked really close I parked about 250 to 300 yards to entrance.

We decided to rent a stroller to make it a little easier on Jaelynn,  as well as having something to put the umbrellas in (we have been stuck in the rain here way to many times) and not have to lug around 2 heavy backpacks all day. Turns out it made it easier on all three of them lol.

Jasmine looks so amused lol.

OK, so we set out to have a fun field day but deep down for me I was a nervous wreck. On June 20, 2013 the carnival was in town , Jasmine, Joslynn and their little friends Maxine (Max) and Pippa all went to get on a ride and the guy let Jaeynn on as well and she was not tall enough! Jodi (Pippa and Max's mom) and I were walking behind the kids and we told them all to get on the spinning apples and instead they all ran onto the starship (you can Google a photo of it) Jason and Ryan (Pippa & Max's dad) were with the girls (me and Jodi were gossiping a ways behind) but they didn’t realize Jaelynn was to short so they never said anything, the guy never measured her or anything. Jodi and I make it to the guys and find out the girls got on the ride, I was nervous for Jaelynn but the ride had been going for about a minute and so far everything was good.

I relaxed a little and as soon as I did the doors opened and every single person came off the ride screaming and crying ,children and adults (it was like the Walking Dead was unleashed and everyone was running from Zombies!) Next thing I know Pippa comes up to me and is crying and screaming its baby Jae, its baby Jae!!!!! My heart dropped, I screamed for Jason, he and Ryan were already on the ride. I was running around trying to find help, I could hear Jason and Ryan yelling "get it the F@!#$ off of her." then "MOVE!" then a big boom and I finally gave up and went to run on the ride but I froze! I was so scared of what I might see, I was scared that might have been the last time I would have ever seen my baby. Next thing I know I see Jason running off the ride with Jaelynn in his arms, He ran her to the medical tent and it turned out it was her leg, she had gotten it stuck in between the seat on the ride and as the ride was going it was going up and down on her leg the whole time (some girls found me and told me it happened a few seconds after the ride started and they couldn’t get the ride conductor to stop) she sat on that ride for over a minute with it jamming her leg between the rollers and plastic. (On the ride the seats go up and down) We took her to the hospital and by the grace of God she had no broken bones. Even the carnival workers couldn’t believe it, one guy told me between the seat is rollers, plastic, wood then metal and he doesn’t know how she still had her leg much less it not getting broken. 

Then of course I had everyone telling me to sue them... First, the way I see it is, my baby is still here and that is all that matters. Second, she walked away with a bruise and now a hematoma. Third, I would feel like I am chancing fate or I am very ungrateful, if she was badly hurt then maybe but I believe in Karma and I think she would look down on me for that. 

She is such a tough girl, they gave us free tickets for the next day and Jason was on duty working the carnival so we went, she didn’t ride rides but she did the fun house. I was proud of her for even going back, I was scared that would make her scared of carnivals but it didn’t.

This was 1 month after the accident. 

This was today, It's still there and she has an indentation like in the top photos. I also have noticed when she is sitting or sleeping in a weird way like on her knees her leg will turn pail blue, so I am taking her to the doctor again to make sure her nerves were not hurt.

OK back to our day...

We set out for planet snoopy; they started off riding the swings. I was so proud of Jaelynn it was like she forgot all about her accident and she jumped right on every ride (me not so much lol). Jasmine and Joslynn are big enough to ride bigger rides so Jason told me to take them and he would ride rides with Jaelynn. When I walked into the park I felt so good about myself, I knew how hard I have been working and I just felt like everyone else did too (they didn’t). Off to the beast we went, Jasmine loves this ride and it was my first time riding with her. Joslynn didn’t want to ride so she had to sit in the cage. The whole ride I was having a panic attack I think, in the end all was well, we ended up riding the stunt car racers, adventure express, and Jasmine and I rode the drop tower.

She is fearless!

When we got on the ride I almost couldn’t get it buckled, I could see people’s faces as they stared at me. Their faces were horrible, they was looking at me like I was a plague or with sympathy but with disgust at the same time. I can only imagine what they were thinking, I was horrified. There was no way I was getting off that ride so I pushed one last time and it buckled, all I wanted to do was run off the ride and cry. All these people were thinking "why would she let herself get like that," not knowing I am finally working my ass off to get rid of it. IF ONLY THEY KNEW! I don't think I ever really noticed the looks before because I was in denial myself, now that I'm not I seen every single stare.

Jason and Jasmine ended up going to ride the Beast one last time, so Joslynn, Jaelynn and I all went to planet snoopy again. Joslynn wanted to ride the train so that's what we did.

They go around and I'm waiting on them to get off then next thing I know the ambulance is driving by then stops at the ride. I dropped everything and ran over there all my worse fears were coming back full force, I seen a little kid on the ground but I couldn't see who it was. Then I felt Joslynn touch my arm and say "Mommy, that little boy tripped and hit his eye when he got off the ride." So I collected myself so they didn't get upset and off we went. (the little boy was OK just had a little scrape, thank god.)

Around 5:30 we decided we had enough, we stopped and got some salads from McDonalds and then went to Wal-Mart to get me some shoes (I will let you know how I like them tonight). I got so sun burnt it is crazy! All in all even with my own unpleasant feeling of self-consciousness kicking in we had an awesome family day, we have been trying to get to KI for two months now, but with Jaelynns accident and Jason working everyday we haven't been able to and I kinda haven't wanted to because I was scared after her accident to let her on another ride. So today she and I over came fears I believe, although I think I was really the only one scared. ;) I feel I did good with my food intake and am glad I stuck to my plains instead of letting Junk food take over me. 

I hope all of you have had a great weekend, keep up the good work!

Sorry for the long and downer post.

Loving my losing

Sorry for not posting yesterday, my Hubs was off work and as soon as I got home we went school clothes shopping. It was so nice spending time with him; I haven’t seen him for more than maybe an hour a day for the past 2 weeks. It was a little harder yesterday, I have been craving Mexican for weeks now (probably why I have been trying to put mild sauce on everything, I even debated putting it on my oatmeal. ewe..) so I went to Taco Bell yesterday for lunch. I was just going to get a chicken soft taco fresco style but I went with a Cantina Bowl and that was a huge mistake, my stomach did not like that at all, I haven’t eaten that much in three weeks, so I learned my lesson. We didn't get done shopping until around 9 and I finally stopped to grab something. I wanted to choose something better, looking at my fitness pal's calculations the regular salad was just a little under the taco salad so I went with the latter, I was surprised and very happy to see how small it was and it got rid of my craving. I stayed under my calorie goal (thank goodness) but I still feel really bad.

So my weigh in was a success, I lost 3 Lbs. this makes me so happy. I am very proud of myself for how hard I have been working, I almost wanted to get a little upset when I get on the scale and only seen a 3 lb. loss, then I reminded myself this is going to take a while and 3 lbs. is really good, I almost think I would be worried if it was more. 

Yesterday was my day off and I hate having a day off, I swear ever since I started working out if I miss a day I am so stressed the next day, I cry at least once, I get way overwhelmed and just feel sluggish. So I have decided I have to do something every day even if it is just for 10 minutes.

I am excited, tomorrow I took the day off work and the family and I are heading to Kings Island. I'm hoping it doesn't rain, if it does we will find something else. We really haven’t been able to do anything together this summer, we really need a family day. So tonight I have to go and get some healthy snacks to pack.

I got a new sports bra on clearance for 5 dollars, I can definitely say these babies are not moving! I'm also going to get me a new pair of shoes tonight to walk in, I REALLY need a new pair. 

OK totally changing topic.... I was sitting at my desk at work and I looked over at my water bottle, I had to take a photo. I never had a water bottle sitting at my desk especially one this big and almost empty and wanting more to drink. I can't believe I have made it this far. I cannot believe I have stopped drinking pop and am now drinking 66 oz. of water a day with nothing else but my coffee in the morning. I can't believe I am drinking it plain without adding those Lipton flavor pack things. I crave water now! I just can't wait to reach the end of my road but so far, I have learned to love myself and am so proud of myself.

My water bottle, I'm awesome like that!

Just wanted to share one more photo, it was so pretty this morning, we had so much fog it reminded me of Oregon which I love and miss. So here it is... I had a beautiful drive into work..

Happy Thursday everyone and I will try to post a post tomorrow.

London Broil

Yesterday I didn't walk as long as I wanted, I only walked half a mile, However to give myself a little credit I wanted to go longer but I went to adjust the Kindle and I lifted up the shirt I use to cover the clock and when I did it erased everything and stopped, So I stopped. There was no way I was starting over; I was in a special mood yesterday.

I made a London broil and it was horrible, I have got to learn a good recipe because the one I used tasted like pure crap! So this really upset me, I was looking forward to a good dinner.

(I mean does this not look great? Don't let it fool you, I should have just given it to my dogs.)

I went to go to bed and I heard a car door slam, me being the tough girl I am... instead of getting the shot gun I open the door look out and I hear another door slam and I yell "who's there?" I swear I am so smart, like really are they going to pop out and say "Oh hey, I'm just breaking into your car but my name is ______." Good thing it was Jason lol, I almost shat myself!

I made chicken, corn, mashed potatoes (more for the kids wants) and salad for dinner tonight, It turned out really good, thank god compared to last night catastrophe. Well Joslynn kept saying she is hungry then finally she looks at me and says " Mommy, I'm starving, I wish we could eat pizza all the time again it was way faster." LOL she cracks me up.

This was my lunch a crab salad, It was amaezing!

Joslynn waiting impatiently for the food to get done.

Awesome chicken  I'll put up the recipe tomorrow.

Well my work out tonight, Guess what I did... I MADE IT TO TWO MILES!!!!!!!!

I am so proud of myself. Tomorrow is weigh in I can’t wait to see how I've done.

How to start a Lawn mower...

 I did it, I made it to a mile and a half!

At half a mile, I wanted to die! It was so nice out today, I took the girl's friends home and I wanted to go to a park in the next town over and walk but I decided when I pulled back into the drive way the grass needed mowed. So I did that since Jason has worked 18 hour days this whole week and has hardly been home. Well my yard is evil; I mean it is a pure bitch. I have gone through 3 mowers in the past two year and my newer one just broke but it can be fixed. I was stuck with the old push mower my in-laws lent us.

 OK, I can stand out there for hours and pull, pull and pull and nothing happens. I check the primer and nope, just when you have given up all hope after 20 minute of cranking, it starts! You start going and as soon as you hit any grass about 3 inches it tries to die (if this happens, you might as well throw in the towel) it happened at least 5 times. I was almost done and it died again, I tried to get her going again so I'm cranking the shit out of this mower and after 10 more times of pulling and pulling I rip open the blister that had formed, sure enough it starts and then dies after 5 minutes. At that point I threw it into the shed and walked away like the bigger person. I know my neighbors have to love me right now. I could only imagine someone has videotaped me and put me on YouTube because I scream every curse word in the book at this thing, I've kicked it, thrown it, spat on it and it is still relentless. It is the lawn mower from hell!

WARNING THIS PIC IS GROSS!

(I know, I'm a baby but I've been squished between two transmissions housing ,I've had a frame rail land on my foot, I've had all kinds of bigger injuries 

but you give me a paper scratch and I'm down for days.)

Well, during my walk I started out going at a pace of 2.0, I went this speed for 13 min. I then bumped up to 2.5 for 3 min., then 2.9 for 3 min., then 3.1 for 4 min. Then I went back down to 2.0 for a little longer and repeated. I don't know about anyone else but with how short I am at 3.1 it feels like I need to jog. At 1.107 I wanted to give up (this is my quitters spot) but I kept going, the wall was pushing and pushing, then it really did feel like it came crumbling down. I hit that high and I was all smiles, I could have walked so much longer but I could hear Jazz and Joss Fighting so I had to go be a mediator. Maybe tonight, maybe tonight!

But Officer.....

  This is going to be a little off the weight loss topic but just a little. This morning the Hubs and I both had to work, so I had no babysitter. So what do I do? I take them with me. I'll give them games to play and they can could go and play in the play house and on the swing set? Well.... not so much, who knew it was going to be raining this morning? Not this girl. Well I get some games, pile them in the Van and head off (running late mind you). Thank goodness I have an awesome lady (Annette) who works with me because she was keeping them in-line. Around nine the boss (my Dad) sent me home (Thank God!) because I had the girls.

We get home and Jasmine is seriously driving me crazy wanting me to cut open a watermelon. While I'm cutting it I am looking at the juice and I made myself a cup. Oh it was so good! So my breakfast was a bowl of watermelon and Watermelon juice. The girls are having a sleep over, so their friend’s mom and I met at Mickey D's and grabbed lunch. I asked my girls if they wanted Hamburgers, chicken nuggets, or a salad and they all three said salad. :) This makes me happy; I must be rubbing off on them. I took a picture, However, I am using a dinosaur of a phone now and forgot to hit save. Really! Do y'all remember those days? Lol... needless to say, I didn't.

We went Krogering and got all kinds of goodies. 

(I remembered save on this one).

On our way back, we were driving down the road and we are jamming to Nirvana and I pull into my mother-in-laws driveway and there is a State Boy behind me with lights on. I start shaking, and flipping out. He steps to the window "license and registration." Start thinking to myself (Crap I didn't get my driver’s license off the kitchen table this morning!) I tell him my Social and he tells me he pulled me over for speeding. What do I say...? "But Officer, I was following that SUV". I am brilliant. Not only does it suck I was an idiot who was speeding, But try explaining this to my husband who is a COP! OH... that's going to be a fun one when he gets home.

My husband has told me over and over again what to do in the case of being pulled over (put your hands on the steering wheel, say sir or mam, turn the radio off before they get to the window so on and so forth). I don't think I did any of these. I know I said Officer a lot, but I think my radio was still on, I was moving around everywhere when he walked up. Err I could kick myself right now.

So tonight the kids want Spaghetti and I guess that's what I have to make. I am hoping to be able to get my walk in, so I hope they all pass out quick. If not I'll walk in the morning and tomorrow night. I walked last night and still only made it to a mile. I really don't know why I can't get over the ledge on this. Just keep pushing I guess.

Until next time-

What I'm Doing..

  I was asked to share what exactly it is I'm doing to lose weight. As I really have just started, I don't know all the tricks of the trade yet, but here are mine.

1.) Before you even start a diet like this, make sure you are ready. You have to be 100% committed. Is it OK to mess up once in a while? Sure, we are all human it is bound to happen. So make sure your head is in the right place.

2.) Understand no matter how much the commercials of TV infomercials say lose 20 lbs. in 1 month without exercise, well that is very unrealistic. So know and understand going into it that it is going to take time, and doing it right the first time will lead to better results.

3.) Set goals but add a new one each week. Do not bombard yourself and try to do them all at once.

I have done all of these rules. I quit drinking soda. The first week I drank water and tea. The next week I added the goal of drinking water with every meal no matter what (this allowed me to get use to the taste and liking it). Now I drink 1 cup of coffee in the morning and the rest of the day water.

I am eating foods I like and am trying to put a healthy spin on them. I will not starve myself or eat things I don't like. My goal here is to live this life style for the rest of my life.

I do count calories. My goal each day is 1490. I always come in under and I feel satisfied.

JOIN A FOOD TRACKER- I follow myfitnesspal, there is also Sparkpeople. Make sure to add friends on there, rather it be people you know or not. The more support the better.

Eat three meals a day...

Do some form of exercise. I am walking right now. I would like to get up to 5K Speed so that is my goal for now. I am going to be adding different things soon. 

So that is it for now, I hope this helps and can't wait to write one after I have lost more.

Italian Lover...

    Err; I am so mad at myself right now. I forgot to lay something out for dinner and now my schedule is all messed up. I should be getting on the Mill in about a half an hour reading my book. Oh well, I'll just have to do a late work out.

The past two days have been so stressful. However, we got the Van (pic to come soon). I am so happy to be out of that Jeep. I tell you what a Van is freaking NICE! I always said I would never own one well, now I know what I've been missing and goodness, someone could have told me.

So yesterday I finally took a day off of working out and I hated every minute of it. I feel so much anxiety today. My stomach was so bloated this morning, I had no energy at work, I've cried at least 20 times. I am so ready to get it tonight its unreal. So I decided while I'm waiting on my fish to get done, I would write about my recipe last night. I call it the.....

                                                             Italian Lover

Pack of Beef Sirloin Patties (make sure they are lean)

Add chopped onion (optional)

1 can of stewed tomatoes

1 jar of super CHUNKY << :) mushroom spaghetti sauce (Ragu)

1 slice per patty pepper jack cheese (or whatever cheese you want, but this is very good)

Bake in oven 350 for 30 to 50 minutes depending on your oven.

The Italian Lover with the peas added was only 529 calories.

Well I hope you enjoy it. Please feel free to try and leave a review.

Also I'm hoping to be able to start putting photos of my daily food diary soon.

I have to get the phone fixed first.