Thursday, October 24, 2013

Weekly Weigh-In (Week 14)

I DID IT!!!!!!! I have made it to a loss of 20 lbs. I am so excited! I would love to hire a photographer and take comparison photos but, I mean really, I will never be able to afford that. So as soon as I can I will post a comparison picture. I really didn't think I would have a loss this week, I checked a few days ago and it did not look good. All in all I am so happy especially losing with not being able to exercise on my foot... About that, I was able to put on my shoe today and I even didn't have my compression sock on. It hurts still but not nearly as bad. Instead of hurting when I step (it still does just not as bad) it hurts when I don't have pressure on it now.

I've done over 50 hours of work this week along with planning HELPING (sorry I have to emphasize, long story) plan the Fall Festival. I'm not one to toot my own horn but TOOT, TOOT, TOOT!!! I have in one month with cash donations and gifts for door prizes, raised a good portion of money... I'm not saying I'm awesome well, OK I am (just playin) ;) !!! I am a great supporter if I'm given a chance, I love planning stuff and organizing things (other than my home lol). I was always scared to go to PTO meetings because I felt judgment (not saying this has changed) but then I realized even though I may be looked down on because I don't have as much money as someone else (which makes me laugh at how uneducated people are about me) I don't live in a nice house, I don't dress as nice, I don't have the right name, whatever it may be? I really do not know but one thing I have learned about this quest is I cannot keep living like that, I cannot let others and their discrimination's dictate my life anymore! So I have been helping with the PTO because I want to be supportive of my children and the school and to make me feel better about myself and for NO other reason! I really think the reason I have had this much success thus far is because I decided to stop letting people belittle me and I have taken front seat in my life, I am now the driver. That has been the hardest part for me. Believe me, nobody likes a backseat driver so take over, kick them out and great things will come your way.

My life has changed so much; I love the person I am becoming. I have stepped out into the world and I am no longer hiding behind a layer of shame. I have never let people bully me or anyone around me until a few years ago. I started caring what people thought and always wanted to please everyone but me. I've noticed now I still want people to like me but I'm not going to go out of my way to make that happen and I know who I want to like me now. I have become a Girl Scout assistant leader (as if I already didn't have enough to do) and I am trying to find my religion again, I have to say that trying to find that again has been pretty fun. Me and my sister in-law have been church hopping and it is very interesting the different people we have met.

So with this being National Bullying Prevention Month this is my opinion on it. I have met a few people this year that have really made me feel like crap and I have just allowed myself to succumb to their behavior. I feel as adults and parents we need to make sure we are teaching our children to respect everyone! At least until they no longer deserve your respect. If they dishonor you enough to no longer be respected then we need to show our children that even though we may not like them as a person, we still need to treat them like one. I am just flabbergasted by how many parents I have come in contact with that still to this day bully people. And in the next breath question why the world is the way it is. We need to teach the children to honor every word that comes out of their mouths. Although most adults do not do this. Change always started with one person. I'm not saying I'm perfect as a parent I have many faults but I like to believe my children treat others good. Again mine too are not perfect but that's the thing, they will never know how to treat people if I don't show them the right way.

I know this doesn't seem to be on the weight loss subject but really when you think about it, it is to me. This is part of my Quest; I am growing as a person/ mother/ wife every single second of every single day. I'm happy because I know that my children are proud of me. Well I hope I haven't bored you to bad today. So in closing... Have a wonderful week and remember be BRAVE!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

First Weight-Loss Injury

Well I figured I would come out of the 5K with my body hurting but I wasn't prepared for a foot injury. 

          Look at my big toe; I swear I thought it was going to bust open.

My foot is huge!!! It doesn't really look like it in the photo but it was killing me after work today. Luckily I was able to keep it up most of the day. I went to the doctors yesterday and I have a sprain. I noticed my foot hurt during and after the 5K but I just thought it was part of the rest of my body screaming at me. On my way to take my brother home it was really hard for me to put pressure on it enough to push the pedal down but again I thought it was just my body being in pain. It was sore the rest of the night. The next morning I woke up and when I went to step down I had a very sharp pain right where the bruise is in the picture. Well we went to the Black Walnut Festival to try and sell the Walnuts the girls collected so they could buy Ice Cream.... Well the buyer wasn't there, I'm not going to lie I was kind of excited because it meant I got to go home faster but I felt really bad for them so we went to the store and got them Ice Cream. They did such a wonderful job!

That’s not even a dent in my yard!

After the football game I had Jason take me to the doctor. They did X-rays and everything looked good, they said I have a Sprain and I have to stay off of it for 5 days and wear a boot. If by the 6th day it isn't better than I have to go back in. So here's to a speedy recovery... I hope!

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Weekly Weigh-In (week 13) / First 5K

I did it! I lost that unwanted 2 lbs I am happy! 

Now, moving on to my first 5K. 

Well I just got done 2 hours ago and as I am sitting here typing this, I am trying to fall asleep. So here it is, the day started off rainy and cold so I was worried about the 5K but it stopped raining and the sky turned blue. It was freezing though but I had a good amount of layers on so I was good! 

They lined everyone up according to runners, walkers, and how fast you usually go. Jason was with me and he said the game plan was we would run right off the bat, < Hahahaha he is so funny! Well we did and sure as shit I was done before half a mile. From there on he tried to get me to run but I was dying for water! And of course all my demons were keeping me from doing it. Around a mile and a half (I believe) I finally talked Jason into Running. He was being so supportive but I didn't want him to be held back walking slowly with me when he is a runner. So he finally went and I love watching him run!

By a mile my shins were killing me! I wanted to cry, I believe I may have. Then at just under a mile in a half I started having really bad Heart Palpitations.  This has been happening for a little over a month now and as I write this it is happening. But I have never felt them like that before, it scared me but I told myself come hell or high water I am finishing this thing even if I drop dead of a heart attack! Once I rounded the half way marker and started heading back a huge relief hit me. I wasn't sure if it was the fact that I was about to be handed water or that soon enough I would be back and I could finally pick the wedgie that was driving me CRAZY!!!!!!! I also noticed my shoes felt so loose, so I'm thinking my feet have shrunk a little because my shoes felt like they was slipping the whole time.

I finished in 196th place over all out of 250 people, 18th in my age range, gun time 55:39 with an average mile time of 17:53 mile. I was surprised by the 17:53 because I usually average a 22:00 minute mile, so I shaved some time off!

All in all besides my feet killing me and my lungs (finally starting to feel better), it was a great time!!!!

I was so proud of myself! I started crying before the race on our way there because I never would have seen myself doing anything like this in my life, Ever! I have overcome so much this past year trying to better my life and it been one HELL OF A RIDE!!!!!

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Weekly Weigh-In (week 12)

Well lets just get it out there... I gained this week yes GAINED! 

Err a 2 lb gain!
I was sitting here all day Thursday trying to figure out what went wrong, I was telling Jason I don't understand what the problem was I stayed on track! Well for all the reasons people get married, he looks at me and does his job as a husband and says "Jenn, don't get mad but you really haven't stayed on track this week." I said “Yes I did and started going over everything I ate." He starts giggling and says “You also had Apple Pie with ice cream and Cookie's and cream birthday cake." I had totally over looked these things. I don't EVER (well not ever but it is very few and far between) eat sweets so I didn't even think about it being a big deal. I was so wrong! I even looked at my logging for the week and I added the Apple Pie for one day but nothing else. I know I ate another piece but must have decided I didn't need to log it. I know I shouldn't beat myself up for it but I am very disappointed in myself. I have not been as dedicated as I need to be. The one thing I keep telling myself that these are the struggles we go through when trying to change our lives this way. That it isn't an easy road and we will struggle more than anything. However, I know I have got to overcome these burdens and get back into the game. So thanks to Jason for being truthful and opening my eyes to the truth and making me see I wasn't doing what I was telling myself I was doing.

Now, the first week of not eating out and so far so good! We have not eaten out once this week. So I am doing well on that front. I have to really work my butt off this week because this coming Saturday is going to be my first 5K!

I hope everyone has a great day!

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Family Freaky Fridays!

OCTOBER!!!!!!! I am in love with October! Ever since the girls were little we started Family Freaky Friday's. Every Friday night we will sit at home and watch scary movies, the kids TV channels usually will have 13 nights of Halloween so when the girls were younger we would watch those movies Goosebumps etc.. Well (I know some may not agree) we are up grading! My oldest loves scary movies and she has been watching Scream etc. since last year but now they all want to join in. I am so excited! I remember when I was 5 sitting in the living room with my brother watching Nightmare on Elm, Halloween, Chucky, Friday the 13th, etc... And it was always a competition to see who could sit the longest without getting scared enough to run into our parent’s room. (I won more times than not) This is what Halloween is to me. Its scary movies, haunted houses, corn mazes, pumpkins, just great time scary fun! It is my favorite Holiday! So last nights movies, we watched all the Screams they're Jasmine's favorite. She is even being Ghost Face for Halloween.  

The hubs made an awesome apple pie last night for our snack with the movies.

It was so good!

October is filled with so much fun and new things for my family this year. Next Wednesday will be 12 weeks Soda free for me! I am so proud of myself! I never would have thought I would quit drinking pop, ever! I am really shocked at myself; I really thought I would run to sweet tea and down it all day. But I didn't, I drink water all day and one cup of coffee.

Now I have been looking at our finances and trying to create a budget (I suck at going by a budget, but I am good at saving money when I need to). We have been so set in our ways of let's just go and get something fast to eat instead of making dinner that I have noticed Jason is gaining weight fast! He would kill me for writing this but it's the truth. I have found a way to be able to eat out and still eat healthy as healthy as you can when you eat out but he doesn't. So we have decided this month we will eat only at home. Here is a break down in June 2013 (before I really began my new lifestyle) we spent $352.09 eating out! That is crazy!!!!! That is a car payment!!! I was so surprised at this, it makes me so sick! September 2013 (2 months into the new lifestyle) we have spent $268.28 eating out. This still shocks me, I really felt I was cooking more since I started but looking at it I see where Jason grabs lunch a lot and I do on Fridays. So out goal this month is to eat out not one time this month. However on the 14th and the 29 the PTO is having fundraisers for the school and its restaurant night out so we will have to order the girls something but he and I cannot eat from there. So out of the $268.28 dollars we spent last month we should only spend maybe $30.00 this month. We shall see and I promise to be 100% truthful about it.

This month is going to be so much fun! Haunted Houses, trick-or-treating (tonight at Hueston Woods State park) Kings Island Fear Fest, Pumpkin patches oh I am so excited!!!!!!

                                    Jasmine says Happy Haunting Everyone!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Weigh In (Week 11)

So sorry for not writing I have been in a lot of the pain the past few days. This is all way to much information but here we go. I went to the doctor and he said I have some disorder I cannot even pronounce. So here is what’s going on basically my food is being processed through my small colon but once it hits the large colon it swells up and creates a lot of pressure making it feel like something is wedged under my rib. This is also causing constipation which SUCKS! He gave me some medication to try and help me to have more regular bowl movements if it doesn't then I will have to have more test. It worries me because a lot of my mom's side of the family has died from stomach cancer. I'm still in a lot of pain, but I have to fight it off and get back to it. 

So for the weigh in.... I am down 1 lb.!

                                              Wow look at my toe nails, I need to fix that lol.

Nice I have made it under 215, it seemed I was stuck and couldn't move from there. I was really scared about it because on Tuesday I had weighed myself and it said 217, I was really scared but it ended up being a great one. Well I don't really have a lot to say I need to get up and move some so keep up the good work everyone!!!

One question for everyone... Do you like Fitness Pal or Spark People better and why?