Weekly Weigh-in Sun(1)

I have had a great week! I feel so energized and refreshed, we have made it a fun family time going for walks and the girls love going to the cemetery 

because they can ride their bikes and let loose. Me and Jason have also had a great time talking and exploring the graves after we are done walking. It is cool to see the ones from 1920's and before.

I have tracked my food everyday so far and have done good, I still refuse to eat things that are going to be unrealistic to me and my family so it has been great finding ways to make food that would normally be unhealthy, into a healthy meal. My only problem so far is potatoes, I can't seem to kick them but I love them and I have been craving them a lot the last two weeks. I guess if my body is craving it then give it what it wants?

I've been getting worried about Jason because he has been trying to lose and he just keeps gaining. I know his sleeping schedule is a problem and I'm hoping he can start dropping once he starts keeping track of his intake also. He has had his thyroid checked and it came back OK so who knows but it doesn't seem right with how much he is gaining in a short time. 

Well I've had some really nice recipes I like and want to put on here but I will have to get them all together one night and post them. 

OK now for the moment we have all been waiting for... Sunday weigh in 1 and I am at a..... 4 lbs. Loss! This is over two weeks so it was 2 lbs. a week not bad at all that is my goal so it seems to be working great!

I hope everyone has a great week and keep up the good work! Hard work does pay off....

10,000 Steps....

I DID IT! I finally made it to my 10,000 steps goal and man was it a killer but I felt AMAZING! 

I have been trying to walk at least 4,000 steps at work and since I am the webmaster it is  hard to do.. But the boss (AKA my Dad) has given me the chore of feeding the sheep. I work at a used farm machinery place well here is a photo. The sheep's feeding area is all the way to the left bottom corner. ( behind the school house) It isn't that far of a walk from the office so I have been walking down the straight isle to the end (top left corner) and back around. Then the sheep like to hang out in the top right corner so I have been walking the complete circle just to go and check on them and make sure no coyotes have gotten any and they are all doing OK.

Here are some random pics from the walk.

So I have been able to clock 4,000 almost if not more doing that. Then I have been doing my cemetery walking but yesterday with the nice weather seemed everyone was doing it! So with my girls I had to find a new spot boo.... I love my cemetery! the girls can run and I don't have to worry about them bugging anyone and I can see them in all directions if they walked away but they seemed to stay with me very well. So I'm giving out a big boo hiss! but I'm glad to see everyone moving.

So it wasn't a total bust we went over to the park in town that you would think would have a gravel track but doesn't, but it is fenced in and I let the girls play while Jason and I walked around the perimeter. Oh my legs were killing me by the time we finished. However, it was a great workout! The ground was so uneven and in spots when you stepped down you would sink about a foot. We had fun though! We did 3 laps and that made the count a little over 8,000 we were going to do another lap but we promised the girls we would make homemade pizza and watch Hunger Games so I figured I could put in the 2,000 steps easy at home. I walked in circles for an hour and made it to 9,100 and the Pizza was done and the movie was going to start so I told Jason if I sit down now I will never get the last 900 steps so I threw my shoes on and walked down the hill to the end of our road and back up to the top and then back down to our house and as I stepped in the house I rounded 9,997 steps so as corny as it is I walked my last three steps to my Hubby to give him a big kiss! 

He road my ass yesterday, I wanted to give up after the second lap but he just kept pushing me asking me how bad I wanted it... All I could think about was his surprise for when I do lose it, and how bad I wanted it! Hubs has only seen me in three dresses ever. I don't wear dresses. I am dying to fit into a dress and surprise him. I know if I put one on now he would say I look great but I want to feel that way! I want to feel when I put it on that I am the Belle of the ball, and feel Sexy... I so want to feel sexy for him again.

Something Like these... Oh I can't wait, dreams WILL come true!

Keepin on

Well I have been staying with my goals. My legs and abs have been killing me from the 30 day challenge but getting used to it. I've walked almost every night, I've walked 4 nights this week but I haven't been able to hit the 10,000 mark yet. It is pretty hard! I've been trying out new recipes but haven't had anything that has jumped out to me to really write about yet. I have logged my food everyday this week and love seeing it laid out in front of me and feeling like I have control over it.   Also a group of Ladies and I are all going to start a weight loss support group and my weigh in days will be changing to Sunday. I'm not 100% Happy about the day change but I think it will be OK.

I hope everyone has a great week, remember to get up and do something!

It's a new Day!

I first thought I was going to start this blog entry off with how disappointed I am in myself and how ashamed I am and call myself every name in the book, but I decided instead of doing that I'm going to tell myself how it is OK that I failed and instead of sitting and moping over it just continue. I wanted to tell myself I am worthy of a beautiful body and feeling healthy, I am worthy of being happy and strong. I have over come so many obstacles in the past year that as losing this weight is going to be hard and take a lot of time I can do it.. I can be all that I have set out to be! I quit smoking over a year ago I remember the date but I am so over it that I could care less when I did I just know that I DID, I have not had a soda in 7 months, I lost 20 pounds (so I know it is possible) and I was in my first 5K! Even though I have not lost the weight I wanted to I have made myself healthier so I can now focus on it more.

The 3 months I was not working out I was so depressed. Everything just seemed so dark, I thought I had nobody to turn to and the pressures of everyday life was really weighing on me. I never understood how someone could take their own life but for a moment I began to understand. But instead of hurting myself, I thought of my 4 reasons to live and just because I couldn't deal with the overwhelming feeling of drowning and not having any support I had to continue. I have never felt this depressed in my life! As I am sitting here typing this I am fighting back the tears as the details of that day are replaying in my head. I have never told anyone other than my Husband. I found a Support group for Police Officer Wives and I slowly began to crawl out, I have found some great support and sisters through them. Just having someone to talk to and understand everything I am going through has been amazing. I'm not 100% but I am 70%.

The reason I brought this up is because while I was working out I always felt great! I found myself being able to deal with stressful situations better, the overwhelming feeling was never around and if I felt any stress I knew as soon as I started sweating I would release every bit of it. I don't know why it has taken me 3 months to come to this realization but I'm glad I have.

So the Quest of the Chunky Mommy is back on! This time NOT ONE DAMN EXCUSE! One of my best friends and I have started this 30 day challenge so if you want to join feel free. It has turned itself into, 100 squats, 200 butt lifts, 200 crunches and 10 push ups a day. Yes you read that right 10 push ups lol. I'm also going to stop using the treadmill having convulsions as an excuse. Even though it is colder than crap outside I have decided since it wouldn't be a very good workout walking around town with all 3 girls I am going to take them to the cemetery and let them ride their bikes while I walk. I also have a step counter on my phone and I am going to try my hardest to get as close to 10,000 steps a day. I have to sit all day now since I am working on a website so I have decided every hour I will get up and walk for 5 minutes. I also need to do this because I have been having a lot of issues with my eyes and tail bone from sitting and staring at a computer so long.

So starting today I am weighing in at 224 lbs. That is a 10lbs weight loss since the beginning.