Well here it is spring
time again and summer is just around the corner. Well unlike most people, I
hate it! I prefer cold weather where I can cover myself up and feel
comfortable. Summer brings bathing suits and shorts and cute outfits you see
all the size 11 and under women being able to wear and wishing for once you
could again.
Well the worst
thing has finally happened to me, we went to an amusement park and I almost was
not able to ride a ride with my 4 year old daughter. Luckily the main thing was
my breasts are way too big for me to be able to see over to be able to click
the seatbelt, but I had that thing pulled to the very end. I have always told
myself, I would never let myself get to the point of not being able to ride
rides but I almost have. I refuse to let this continue. Then again I say this
all the time and never do anything to help it.
I look in the mirror and I see myself and I do not hate what
I see. I am big but I think I look OK. Then again I realize I am 5'1" and
I weigh 230lbs. Wow it hurts a lot to write that and to let the world know how
I have miss used my body. I wear a size 18 pants and 2x shirts. OK now that all
my dirty laundry has been aired here is a warning. Do not think you will get on
here and read the polite truth. No this is intended to be the dirty little
secrets, the let it all out blog. I know I am fat people. So if you want to
write rude comments feel free its cool, but guess who has the deleting
abilities, so will it really do you any good? Then again, I do love your
mamma's so fat jokes so let them ring.
OK so about me. I am a wife to an amazing Husband/ father/ex-military/Police
Officer. He has my whole heart. I have 3 daughters 8, 7, and 5. So I have not
always been big but I have always been chunky. It seems I went from wearing a
size 8 when I was little, straight to a 13/14 by the age of 14. So I have never
been a size 0. I have been in a size 18 since 7 years ago after having my first
daughter.
Now my everyday
life, I hate exercising, so this is the reason why I am this way. This is my
number one goal to fix. However, I love physical work. I work at a used tractor
parts dealership that is family owned. I lift 100 lbs or more at a time all day.
I walk a lot during the day looking for parts as well. So it's not like I sit
on my rear all day long. I do not eat breakfast hardly ever, and I have started
to make myself eat lunch. I come home and will eat dinner around 8 (I know) but
I don't eat a lot. However, I love the fast food. Not really love, but I love
the easiness of it. I drink pop and hardly ever touch water. I am horrible.
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