Loving my losing

Sorry for not posting yesterday, my Hubs was off work and as soon as I got home we went school clothes shopping. It was so nice spending time with him; I haven’t seen him for more than maybe an hour a day for the past 2 weeks. It was a little harder yesterday, I have been craving Mexican for weeks now (probably why I have been trying to put mild sauce on everything, I even debated putting it on my oatmeal. ewe..) so I went to Taco Bell yesterday for lunch. I was just going to get a chicken soft taco fresco style but I went with a Cantina Bowl and that was a huge mistake, my stomach did not like that at all, I haven’t eaten that much in three weeks, so I learned my lesson. We didn't get done shopping until around 9 and I finally stopped to grab something. I wanted to choose something better, looking at my fitness pal's calculations the regular salad was just a little under the taco salad so I went with the latter, I was surprised and very happy to see how small it was and it got rid of my craving. I stayed under my calorie goal (thank goodness) but I still feel really bad.

So my weigh in was a success, I lost 3 Lbs. this makes me so happy. I am very proud of myself for how hard I have been working, I almost wanted to get a little upset when I get on the scale and only seen a 3 lb. loss, then I reminded myself this is going to take a while and 3 lbs. is really good, I almost think I would be worried if it was more. 

Yesterday was my day off and I hate having a day off, I swear ever since I started working out if I miss a day I am so stressed the next day, I cry at least once, I get way overwhelmed and just feel sluggish. So I have decided I have to do something every day even if it is just for 10 minutes.

I am excited, tomorrow I took the day off work and the family and I are heading to Kings Island. I'm hoping it doesn't rain, if it does we will find something else. We really haven’t been able to do anything together this summer, we really need a family day. So tonight I have to go and get some healthy snacks to pack.

I got a new sports bra on clearance for 5 dollars, I can definitely say these babies are not moving! I'm also going to get me a new pair of shoes tonight to walk in, I REALLY need a new pair. 

OK totally changing topic.... I was sitting at my desk at work and I looked over at my water bottle, I had to take a photo. I never had a water bottle sitting at my desk especially one this big and almost empty and wanting more to drink. I can't believe I have made it this far. I cannot believe I have stopped drinking pop and am now drinking 66 oz. of water a day with nothing else but my coffee in the morning. I can't believe I am drinking it plain without adding those Lipton flavor pack things. I crave water now! I just can't wait to reach the end of my road but so far, I have learned to love myself and am so proud of myself.

My water bottle, I'm awesome like that!

Just wanted to share one more photo, it was so pretty this morning, we had so much fog it reminded me of Oregon which I love and miss. So here it is... I had a beautiful drive into work..

Happy Thursday everyone and I will try to post a post tomorrow.

London Broil

Yesterday I didn't walk as long as I wanted, I only walked half a mile, However to give myself a little credit I wanted to go longer but I went to adjust the Kindle and I lifted up the shirt I use to cover the clock and when I did it erased everything and stopped, So I stopped. There was no way I was starting over; I was in a special mood yesterday.

I made a London broil and it was horrible, I have got to learn a good recipe because the one I used tasted like pure crap! So this really upset me, I was looking forward to a good dinner.

(I mean does this not look great? Don't let it fool you, I should have just given it to my dogs.)

I went to go to bed and I heard a car door slam, me being the tough girl I am... instead of getting the shot gun I open the door look out and I hear another door slam and I yell "who's there?" I swear I am so smart, like really are they going to pop out and say "Oh hey, I'm just breaking into your car but my name is ______." Good thing it was Jason lol, I almost shat myself!

I made chicken, corn, mashed potatoes (more for the kids wants) and salad for dinner tonight, It turned out really good, thank god compared to last night catastrophe. Well Joslynn kept saying she is hungry then finally she looks at me and says " Mommy, I'm starving, I wish we could eat pizza all the time again it was way faster." LOL she cracks me up.

This was my lunch a crab salad, It was amaezing!

Joslynn waiting impatiently for the food to get done.

Awesome chicken  I'll put up the recipe tomorrow.

Well my work out tonight, Guess what I did... I MADE IT TO TWO MILES!!!!!!!!

I am so proud of myself. Tomorrow is weigh in I can’t wait to see how I've done.

How to start a Lawn mower...

 I did it, I made it to a mile and a half!

At half a mile, I wanted to die! It was so nice out today, I took the girl's friends home and I wanted to go to a park in the next town over and walk but I decided when I pulled back into the drive way the grass needed mowed. So I did that since Jason has worked 18 hour days this whole week and has hardly been home. Well my yard is evil; I mean it is a pure bitch. I have gone through 3 mowers in the past two year and my newer one just broke but it can be fixed. I was stuck with the old push mower my in-laws lent us.

 OK, I can stand out there for hours and pull, pull and pull and nothing happens. I check the primer and nope, just when you have given up all hope after 20 minute of cranking, it starts! You start going and as soon as you hit any grass about 3 inches it tries to die (if this happens, you might as well throw in the towel) it happened at least 5 times. I was almost done and it died again, I tried to get her going again so I'm cranking the shit out of this mower and after 10 more times of pulling and pulling I rip open the blister that had formed, sure enough it starts and then dies after 5 minutes. At that point I threw it into the shed and walked away like the bigger person. I know my neighbors have to love me right now. I could only imagine someone has videotaped me and put me on YouTube because I scream every curse word in the book at this thing, I've kicked it, thrown it, spat on it and it is still relentless. It is the lawn mower from hell!

WARNING THIS PIC IS GROSS!

(I know, I'm a baby but I've been squished between two transmissions housing ,I've had a frame rail land on my foot, I've had all kinds of bigger injuries 

but you give me a paper scratch and I'm down for days.)

Well, during my walk I started out going at a pace of 2.0, I went this speed for 13 min. I then bumped up to 2.5 for 3 min., then 2.9 for 3 min., then 3.1 for 4 min. Then I went back down to 2.0 for a little longer and repeated. I don't know about anyone else but with how short I am at 3.1 it feels like I need to jog. At 1.107 I wanted to give up (this is my quitters spot) but I kept going, the wall was pushing and pushing, then it really did feel like it came crumbling down. I hit that high and I was all smiles, I could have walked so much longer but I could hear Jazz and Joss Fighting so I had to go be a mediator. Maybe tonight, maybe tonight!

What I'm Doing..

  I was asked to share what exactly it is I'm doing to lose weight. As I really have just started, I don't know all the tricks of the trade yet, but here are mine.

1.) Before you even start a diet like this, make sure you are ready. You have to be 100% committed. Is it OK to mess up once in a while? Sure, we are all human it is bound to happen. So make sure your head is in the right place.

2.) Understand no matter how much the commercials of TV infomercials say lose 20 lbs. in 1 month without exercise, well that is very unrealistic. So know and understand going into it that it is going to take time, and doing it right the first time will lead to better results.

3.) Set goals but add a new one each week. Do not bombard yourself and try to do them all at once.

I have done all of these rules. I quit drinking soda. The first week I drank water and tea. The next week I added the goal of drinking water with every meal no matter what (this allowed me to get use to the taste and liking it). Now I drink 1 cup of coffee in the morning and the rest of the day water.

I am eating foods I like and am trying to put a healthy spin on them. I will not starve myself or eat things I don't like. My goal here is to live this life style for the rest of my life.

I do count calories. My goal each day is 1490. I always come in under and I feel satisfied.

JOIN A FOOD TRACKER- I follow myfitnesspal, there is also Sparkpeople. Make sure to add friends on there, rather it be people you know or not. The more support the better.

Eat three meals a day...

Do some form of exercise. I am walking right now. I would like to get up to 5K Speed so that is my goal for now. I am going to be adding different things soon. 

So that is it for now, I hope this helps and can't wait to write one after I have lost more.

Italian Lover...

    Err; I am so mad at myself right now. I forgot to lay something out for dinner and now my schedule is all messed up. I should be getting on the Mill in about a half an hour reading my book. Oh well, I'll just have to do a late work out.

The past two days have been so stressful. However, we got the Van (pic to come soon). I am so happy to be out of that Jeep. I tell you what a Van is freaking NICE! I always said I would never own one well, now I know what I've been missing and goodness, someone could have told me.

So yesterday I finally took a day off of working out and I hated every minute of it. I feel so much anxiety today. My stomach was so bloated this morning, I had no energy at work, I've cried at least 20 times. I am so ready to get it tonight its unreal. So I decided while I'm waiting on my fish to get done, I would write about my recipe last night. I call it the.....

                                                             Italian Lover

Pack of Beef Sirloin Patties (make sure they are lean)

Add chopped onion (optional)

1 can of stewed tomatoes

1 jar of super CHUNKY << :) mushroom spaghetti sauce (Ragu)

1 slice per patty pepper jack cheese (or whatever cheese you want, but this is very good)

Bake in oven 350 for 30 to 50 minutes depending on your oven.

The Italian Lover with the peas added was only 529 calories.

Well I hope you enjoy it. Please feel free to try and leave a review.

Also I'm hoping to be able to start putting photos of my daily food diary soon.

I have to get the phone fixed first.

One Step at a Time...

Well, I have taken the biggest step for myself and I am so proud of it. I have officially quit drinking pop! Yay me!! I have been reading blog after blog, article after article about how to lose weight fast. Then I read one that made the most since, and it had been right in front of my face all this time. I was reading someone’s blog, and she had been a big success, she is still keeping it up, but she lost it so fast now it seems it is just so much work to keep it going. Then I read an article that I had read months ago but at that time it was all about the fastest way, so I over looked it. This article just talked about small thing to do to make a difference.

 It just said to take your time basically.

 So here is my list of things I'm going to do.

1. No matter how big I am wear what I want to wear. I don't have to degrade myself anymore because I don't feel I am worthy of looking pretty.

2. Take my time losing weight, don’t make it a race.

3. Each week change one thing. (Stop drinking pop, drop sweats, add breakfast, etc.)

4. Reward yourself (Don't drink pop, Buy a new top!)

5. Make sure to start doing some form of exerciser- no matter what...

 My main goal here is to love myself for who I am, if I don't find strength and courage to believe in myself I will never be able to do it.