I hope everyone has a great week, remember to get up and do something!
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Keepin on
Well I have been staying with my goals. My legs and abs have been killing me from the 30 day challenge but getting used to it. I've walked almost every night, I've walked 4 nights this week but I haven't been able to hit the 10,000 mark yet. It is pretty hard! I've been trying out new recipes but haven't had anything that has jumped out to me to really write about yet. I have logged my food everyday this week and love seeing it laid out in front of me and feeling like I have control over it. Also a group of Ladies and I are all going to start a weight loss support group and my weigh in days will be changing to Sunday. I'm not 100% Happy about the day change but I think it will be OK.
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
It's a new Day!
I first thought I was going to start this blog entry off with how disappointed I am in myself and how ashamed I am and call myself every name in the book, but I decided instead of doing that I'm going to tell myself how it is OK that I failed and instead of sitting and moping over it just continue. I wanted to tell myself I am worthy of a beautiful body and feeling healthy, I am worthy of being happy and strong. I have over come so many obstacles in the past year that as losing this weight is going to be hard and take a lot of time I can do it.. I can be all that I have set out to be! I quit smoking over a year ago I remember the date but I am so over it that I could care less when I did I just know that I DID, I have not had a soda in 7 months, I lost 20 pounds (so I know it is possible) and I was in my first 5K! Even though I have not lost the weight I wanted to I have made myself healthier so I can now focus on it more.
The 3 months I was not working out I was so depressed. Everything just seemed so dark, I thought I had nobody to turn to and the pressures of everyday life was really weighing on me. I never understood how someone could take their own life but for a moment I began to understand. But instead of hurting myself, I thought of my 4 reasons to live and just because I couldn't deal with the overwhelming feeling of drowning and not having any support I had to continue. I have never felt this depressed in my life! As I am sitting here typing this I am fighting back the tears as the details of that day are replaying in my head. I have never told anyone other than my Husband. I found a Support group for Police Officer Wives and I slowly began to crawl out, I have found some great support and sisters through them. Just having someone to talk to and understand everything I am going through has been amazing. I'm not 100% but I am 70%.
The reason I brought this up is because while I was working out I always felt great! I found myself being able to deal with stressful situations better, the overwhelming feeling was never around and if I felt any stress I knew as soon as I started sweating I would release every bit of it. I don't know why it has taken me 3 months to come to this realization but I'm glad I have.
So the Quest of the Chunky Mommy is back on! This time NOT ONE DAMN EXCUSE! One of my best friends and I have started this 30 day challenge so if you want to join feel free. It has turned itself into, 100 squats, 200 butt lifts, 200 crunches and 10 push ups a day. Yes you read that right 10 push ups lol. I'm also going to stop using the treadmill having convulsions as an excuse. Even though it is colder than crap outside I have decided since it wouldn't be a very good workout walking around town with all 3 girls I am going to take them to the cemetery and let them ride their bikes while I walk. I also have a step counter on my phone and I am going to try my hardest to get as close to 10,000 steps a day. I have to sit all day now since I am working on a website so I have decided every hour I will get up and walk for 5 minutes. I also need to do this because I have been having a lot of issues with my eyes and tail bone from sitting and staring at a computer so long.
So starting today I am weighing in at 224 lbs. That is a 10lbs weight loss since the beginning.
The 3 months I was not working out I was so depressed. Everything just seemed so dark, I thought I had nobody to turn to and the pressures of everyday life was really weighing on me. I never understood how someone could take their own life but for a moment I began to understand. But instead of hurting myself, I thought of my 4 reasons to live and just because I couldn't deal with the overwhelming feeling of drowning and not having any support I had to continue. I have never felt this depressed in my life! As I am sitting here typing this I am fighting back the tears as the details of that day are replaying in my head. I have never told anyone other than my Husband. I found a Support group for Police Officer Wives and I slowly began to crawl out, I have found some great support and sisters through them. Just having someone to talk to and understand everything I am going through has been amazing. I'm not 100% but I am 70%.
The reason I brought this up is because while I was working out I always felt great! I found myself being able to deal with stressful situations better, the overwhelming feeling was never around and if I felt any stress I knew as soon as I started sweating I would release every bit of it. I don't know why it has taken me 3 months to come to this realization but I'm glad I have.
So the Quest of the Chunky Mommy is back on! This time NOT ONE DAMN EXCUSE! One of my best friends and I have started this 30 day challenge so if you want to join feel free. It has turned itself into, 100 squats, 200 butt lifts, 200 crunches and 10 push ups a day. Yes you read that right 10 push ups lol. I'm also going to stop using the treadmill having convulsions as an excuse. Even though it is colder than crap outside I have decided since it wouldn't be a very good workout walking around town with all 3 girls I am going to take them to the cemetery and let them ride their bikes while I walk. I also have a step counter on my phone and I am going to try my hardest to get as close to 10,000 steps a day. I have to sit all day now since I am working on a website so I have decided every hour I will get up and walk for 5 minutes. I also need to do this because I have been having a lot of issues with my eyes and tail bone from sitting and staring at a computer so long.
So starting today I am weighing in at 224 lbs. That is a 10lbs weight loss since the beginning.
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